This coming Thursday (30th) I have an assessment appointment at the local mental health unit. Even though I asked for it I’m feeling incredibly nervous about going; and it’s only Monday. What on earth am I going to feel like later in the week?
What I can’t quite work out is what exactly it is that I’m worrying about. I know that part of it is that I’m scared that I won’t get the diagnosis that I want, or that I won’t get any diagnosis at all. Another element is the feat that I have of going to new places and meeting new people; and then there’s my fear of opening up about myself and trusting other people. I’m also terrified that I’ll say the wrong thing and get myself into trouble (though lord knows how that’s even possible).
All in all, I’m shit scared 🙁